neverneverland♥

2009-05-21T18:46:00.002+08:00

hihihihihihhihihi,
exams are over,im so happy!
can relax,watch dramas!:D
gna watch boys over flowers again!
and my girl(:

THURSDAY went to lynn's house to watch!
she bought the boys over flowers dvd!
getting addicted all over again(:
janice and ce laugh alot!LOLL
we were very reluctant to go back home after that
haha

FRIDAY had oral.
surprisingly chinese was better than english!..
then went to eat roti prata with janice,ce,amelia
lynn and lijia went home
after lunch,went to lan!
LOLLL!
then ce watched while we all played audition
super hard game
but janice is a pro luh
thenthen have bigbang song!:D
but too fast TT
played for an hr,then janice went training
amelia and me stayed and play for another hr(:
we tried many slow song
we couldnt get left and right correct :S
then we tried fast songs even worse!lol!
watched the guys playing some killing game
so gross!
ater that went to change cos our shirt was..but then...
LOL!
went home right after that(:
I WANT TO PLAY AGAIN!:D

hahhahahaha,cant believe i saw u there..so surprised..felt sad yet happy..u were so close yet so far yknw..everytime i see you,will start ti rmb abt the past..andand it hurts..i try to shut it all out,but i just cant..i rly wna let go,but i cant..its not that i dun want..its just so hard...7mths alr..tired alr..ahh,it hurts even more that when u see me u show a totally dun care and irritated face..do u hate to see me that much?..haiiiiii... TT

2009-04-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

stress.super stress.
MYE are coming but i have srsly no mood to study.
so sian of studying.howhowwwwww????-.-

life is super screwed luh.duno how to say also.no,is dun want to say.okay,whatever.cant be bothered anymore.everything is contridicting.i feel like im stuck in a maze with no way out.

2009-04-12T17:42:00.001+08:00

i want a LG CYON phone.

2009-04-12T17:42:00.000+08:00

i want a LG CYON phone.

2009-04-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

missyou.missyou.missyou.missyou.
hopethatyoureokay. -.-

2009-03-27T22:04:00.002+08:00

hi,
Reset by Super Junior
here are the eng subs:

you ask me if i really don’t feel anything or if nothing’s wrong from time to timedo i really look like nothing is wrong? do i?even now, when i look at you my heart hurts..even if it’s for a moment, i try hard not to let my tears falldon’t you know that i’m smiling like a fool?now how can you and i become friends like before?can we really be like that? can we really?

press the reset, press press the reset i’m looking at you.. only you press the reset, press press the reset you, i can’t forget you press the reset, press press the reset how am i to let go of the person who’s standing in front of me press the reset, press press the reset

[Rap] you.. please say something..that your heart is aching with longing too, like me.. tell me my heart stops.. i can’t breathe.. my wounds don’t heal i patch up the empty holes you left with tears today tooby any chance, would you go there? think about me occasionally?thinking this, i go crazy. do you know this heart of mine?i love you i love you. i promise you.. i’ll hold your hand tight.i’m sorry i’m sorry.. come back to me. press the reset

can we really not go back to how we were.. to the day when we first bumped into each other i guess we can’t go back to that day.. please, oh please possibly.. maybe.. if… you too are smiling for my sakeif it’s really like that, come back now

press the reset, press press the reset i’m looking at you.. only you press the reset, press press the reset you, i can’t forget you press the reset, press press the reset how am i to let go of the person who’s standing in front of me press the reset, press press the reset

rather, should i leave first? is letting you go something i do for you?but forgive me.. i can’t do it. i can’t forget you. come back

press the reset, press press the reset i’m looking at you.. only you press the reset, press press the resetyou, i can’t forget you press the reset, press press the reset how am i to let go of the person who’s standing in front of me press the reset, press press the reset

press the reset.if only life has a reset button.
my heart hurts to see you like this.and all i can do is stare.

i dont want my life.its like a rollar coaster ride.im tired of all these.i wish i were dead.i try.holding back those tears when i see you.everyday im so frightened that you two will end up tgth.i cant imagine.i dont trust you.i dont trust her.what should i do?

2009-03-21T21:02:00.002+08:00

why are you asking me to do homework?!!!!! >:(

2009-03-20T19:32:00.002+08:00

'elo

Here's what I did tdy:
train
lunched
then...
jx came over,
did dnt,
watch Hana Yori Dango.
now...
blogging-.-
listening to this wonderful song called first love by utada hikaru.
and,finally,i found the download for it.

k,thats abt it.
(life is boring.)

Lately,I have been you missing you so much.

2009-03-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

and i still dont trust you.

2009-03-13T21:31:00.006+08:00

'sup,
been out for whole day.
went back to my pri sch.
then to j8 with
sri,jx,shernne,grace,tiffany tan,su an,ning,nigel,nicohalos,zy,zx,jackie,stewart,philbert,shyne,wm,jq,aaron. (17 ppl)
sri and i were the earliest.
sri bought jx her bday present.
lunch next.
watched movie called push.
but the movie like no link to the title.anyways,
nice movie; interesting
went to arcade.
saw a guy playing bball,and the score was abt 900!what a pro.
went to buy ice cream
then head home.
jx wanted to take pics with her camera but she forget to put in the batteries!LOL!

why did you come?why?always liddat.why did you wait at the bus stop.just to see?and then you saw me but act like you dont know me.i try,i try to don't care abt it.just pretend youre not there.but i cant.have you wondered how i feel?do you have any idea how much it hurts?i cant even describe the pain.the horrible pain that is eating my heart.i try to compress everything.try to forget,try to let go.but every memory doesnt fade.in fact,it gets clearer.suddenly i can rmb everything vividly.my head is screaming.i cant get you out.cant get everything out of my head.my heart is hurting.every single day it gets worse.i cant take all this anymore.im tired.wrong,im exhausted.totally exhausted.i cant breathe.i cant hold back.those flashbacks are killing me.stop it.stop all this.pls.make my heart stop hurting pls.pls.i wanna scream at you.ask you why.why this.why her.why her.tell me why.youre a liar.a big fat liar.go away.go away pls.pls.you really made me the biggest fool on earth.this hurts too much.too much alr.cant take it anymore.reach the limit.i hate you(but still love you)for everything that you have done.and i hate myself even more for makingit happen.you are my BIGGEST regret ever.

2009-03-12T19:32:00.001+08:00

I don't trust you.

2009-03-09T20:46:00.003+08:00

hello world,

have a lot to say.
lemme make this short and sweet:
i'm.tired.of.life.

(science center with isa).

2009-03-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

When love becomes hate...
that's scary.

2009-03-02T20:12:00.005+08:00

hi,

(it used to have 6members)

BIGBANG cheered me up.
Sri got me addicted to Hana Yori Dango.

2009-02-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

hi,
i think its true.

2009-02-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

hi,
eating helps me distress.

2009-02-13T19:59:00.001+08:00

I thought you were different.

2009-02-12T19:45:00.002+08:00

hi,
is everything suppose to turn out this way?

life is like shit.damn screwd.i dont know what to do.im trying to hard.i rly am.but its no use.nothing is working.shit.my heart is hurting so much now.i dont know what to do.im so scared now.i really really wish that im not here now.

2009-02-01T20:35:00.003+08:00

伤痕累累。累了。真的累了。很想解脱，很想把一切的不愉快忘掉。现在觉得自己快又不过气了。自己一直针扎。不知道怎么办才好。。心很痛，很乱。。发现自己又回到了square 1。。
有个预感你心里已经有别人了。。。

2009-01-29T20:20:00.003+08:00

hello,
i'm tired.exhuasted.
ahh,shit.
i have like 2 tests in a week and a dnt homework which requires us to create 10 NEW ideas from 1 SINGLE product.
and i'm here listening and watching TOP's (♥) MV.
feeling damn stress all of a sudden.
and it's making me feel so restless and i wanna scream-.-

what are you trying to do?what are you trying to say?here i am feeling damn confuse,contridicting myself again and again.and you're acting like nothing has happened.i really really wanna knw what are you thinking.i'm tired of guessing over and over again.i have been trying so hard yknw to forget you.everytime,every single time i decide to forget you,you would come and talk to me and i;m back to square one.but i cant imagine myself forgetting you and moving on.cos life without you would be as though...
someone,anyone,tell me how.

2009-01-28T20:17:00.002+08:00

hi,
celebrated CNY in school today.had a class party!
with Mr Leo,who's so cute. ;D
everyone brought alot alot of food.
everyone pitched in to make the CNY poster.
Krystal and I secretly agreed that our class poster was the nicest among the sec 3s :p
had performance later.
JY and Su an kept on looking and trying to touch my knees! TT

After school,went to Jackie's house with Sarah,PY,Su An,Gev and alot of other guys.
We sat and talk while the guys were playing cards.
Jx,shernne,sri,tiffany tan and more people came over later and we went to her house to makan cos it's her mum's Bday(:
had steamboat,and her mum made jelly using egg shell as a mould.so cool!
after eating,cleaned up,wished her mum happy birthday,went to AMK hub cos the rest wanted to watch movie.

went back home.was so careless.CRAP!

I'm actually upposed to do Dnt but it is so boring and so confusing.
regretregret.
my head is like bursting of Dnt products and SCAMPER.
so,I'm like searching for BigBang/DBSK songs;D and bloggingggggg

2009-01-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

Deja vu.

2009-01-23T20:24:00.006+08:00

hi,
I have homework for chinese new year.wth-.-
And everywhere is painnnnnnnnn cos of training.
Andand I really really dont want to go for visitation.
cos there will be loud chinese new year music blasting into my ears and it will stick inside my head like forever.

feel like sec3 has been so rush.like everything is rushing past me.
and i'm like behind tryyyinggg to catch up.
but,i like my class:D
I REGRET taking DnT sooo badly ok.
It like doesn't make any sense.

ohohohoh,here's smth py and su'an created just now using mnemonic:
Sweet
Dbsk
Does
Loves
Five
Bitches
Randomly!
LOL:D
it's meant for geog to help us rmb some forest layers.

(Shit U!I don't like guessing games!)

2009-01-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

okay.quick post.
im sooooooo tired.
my head is gna burst.
okokokokokkokkokokokok.
im feeling damn restless.

2008-12-26T20:41:00.005+08:00

Woo Hoo!back from Msia.
Photos:
1612

langkawi airport

hotel view
1712
took a boat ride to see a bat cave and a small beach in the middle of no where.
sat cable car after that.
the cable car went up to 710metres above sea level.lol.
and going down was so scary,cos the cable car looked like it wasnt moving.and we even thought it wasnt moving so we started screaming.LOL.

okay.the post is too long.cont tmr.

2008-12-15T19:45:00.003+08:00

Back from camp!

Photos.

2008-12-09T19:21:00.002+08:00

hi.
went out with Su an tdy. :D
Sab and Py were suppoese to come.but Sab is sick and Py has training:(
went to watch wild child!:D
very very nice!
the actresses are super super skinny luh.
after the movie went to buy shorts for msia trip.
saw super nice shirts at this shop!
I WANT!
cant wait to go to msia to shop!!!
haha,then we headed home.
before that,went to her house so she could pass me Twilight(:
haha,exciting book(:

(1 more week to Msia!)

2008-12-05T19:39:00.004+08:00

okay.
kinda had a rough day.
bear with me.
okay,this sucks.it's just that,i duno.it seems silly to get upset over this.but i have been training so hard,but i can't get it right.it's either i'm too slow or i forget to bend or forget to turn,whatsoever.there wld bound to have smth going wrong.why?train so hard alr,why can't i get it right?i mean like i shld get it right..i duno.like everything i do,i cant do it right.it will always,always screw up.not only in judo,but in every single thing.seems like everyone can do over the obstacle,but me.even the sec 1s can do it.then its so embaressing that i cant.
feel so pressurize.very very pressurize whenever training.i feel so tense especially when fighting.pressurise cos new sec 1s are coming and i still suck very much.the pressure is like driving me nuts.
i feel like giving up now.i dont want to train.i dont want to be captain.being captain sucks k.it sucks so bad k.its so demoralizing to see no one goes training.im tired.damn tired.i feel so useless.whats the point to be captain when like have no authority,when 自己根本没有资格当？！

2008-12-04T20:10:00.003+08:00

hi.
went out the whole day.very tired now.
cant believe i went to the veggie farm with my family.the weather was so so hot!but the wind was so good!
after viewing,went to Jurong point to lunch and met my aunt there.
bought shorts cos i have grown fatter.TT
clothes nowadays are getting expensive:(
ok,i srsly srsly need to lose weight.
i hate my size now.srsly.
my mum and aunt needed to buy ingredients for sushi,so went to some centre to buy.so waited in the car.the shop is at the 13th floor.so my dad had to drive up all the way there,round and round.so giddy!wth-.-
sent my aunt back home then head home.
here are some pics.enjoy.

2008-12-03T15:11:00.005+08:00

okay.
YAY,SU'AN IS BACK!:D
saw Janice on the bus tdy.Amelia came to school to watch training.haha,Janice accompanied Amelia in the end cos she had a bad tummyache.
learnt sweep for training.i HATE sweep.i cant sweep people.
anyways,before that,did this thing called plank for warm up.so we must like lie down and not touch the mat.our arms supporting the weight.wth,super hard luh!but its good for the stomach.LOL.
for lunch went tp to eat with Su an,Yf and Mr yeo.then went popular and bought files with Su an.
then head back home.

this sucks luh.hols are so boring.srsly.my parents are going out and my bro is going to exercise with his friend.and i will be stuck all alone at home!TT this stinks ar.nothing to do at home!and tmr my parents ask me to go to some veggie farm-.- why cant they go to the market to buy veggie?!!?
I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!!!!

2008-12-01T15:17:00.003+08:00

hello!
went for training.vannessa,ridwan,jeremy came back.plus NY people.
Janice happily thought she would be going Msia this week,but actually she would be going next week!LOL,then she ate too much and cause her to have indigetion so she couldn't come. T.T so sad.so training very little people luh,(not incld the rest)so we just trained technique,blah blah blah.
ooh,Mr yeo came training and fought with jeremy!LOLLL!they look like two balls fighting.LOL!Mr yeo like countered Jeremy then he win ar!HAHA.
after training,went to buy bubble tea,then head home.sat 162 with mona:D i didn't want to go home so early,so i went playground for awhile.the weather is SUPER hot!took some pictures.

2008-11-28T15:19:00.001+08:00

hello!
had judo today.and NY people came and joined us for training.
sul taught groundwork today.so slack.but like all the technique use on groundwork like so hard ar,and so confusing. HAIYOOOOO!*Sighs*
partnered amelia:D we like keep on laughing when holding each other.LOL.everytime she hold me down,i need to bridge up.but i need to close my eyes in order to bridge up luh!!*.* so amelia keep on laughing!
after judo,went to drink bubble tea with Chern ern and Amelia.Chern ern and me tried a new bubble tea called 'small s'.haha,nice lehs!:D and i ate an oats 'N' honey energy bar!my lunch!LOL.
went to j8 on my own to buy pants.my mum thinks Fbt is short and don't let me wear to camp -.- so when i was paying for my pants,the cashier(an old lady)saw my gi and asked: "girl ar,you going camping ar?" lol!so weird.
now,i'm gna enjoy watching my WITCH YOO HEE!xD

p.s is this post too boring??? o.o

2008-11-27T17:14:00.000+08:00

hihihihihi,
thursdays are so boring!
didn't do much today.made Christmas presents for everyone:D
anyways,here's a nice song:

Forever&always by Taylor Swift(I'm so addicted to it)
Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye,we caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye,and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak,I dont feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened?Please tell me cause one second it was perfect,
Now youre halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone,he still hasnt called
And you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh,and it rains in your bedroom,everything is wrong
It rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Was I out of line?
Did I say something way to honest?Did you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes,thought I knew you for a minute
Now Im not so sure
So heres to everything,coming down to nothing
Heres to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going?Thought I knew for a minute but I dont anymore
And I stare at the phone,he still hasnt called
And you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh,and it rains in your bedroom,everything is wrong
It rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Did you mean it baby?I dont think so
Back up, baby back up.Did you forget everything?(x2)
Oh,and it rains in your bedroom,everything is wrong
It rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
And I stare at the phone,He still hasnt called
And you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didnt mean it baby
He said forever and always
LINK:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMorTIhIPVE

2008-11-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

MY fIRST POST!:D
WELCOME TO TZEYAN'S BLOG!!!:D

hello people!i cant blog a long long post,cos me brother is behind me.and he will tell!
post again tmr:D